life.

i know that in life, sometimes crazy stuff happens... i know in life, i will meet many random people, who will influence my life.... but what to do about what will influence my son's life... what do i do when i know something just isn't right, i just can't put my finger on it? sometimes i wonder if i am ready for this, but i know i am.... it wouldn't have happened if i wasn't. i just really am freaked out at this world. its nutz out there and he is nothing but an innocent baby...( well soon to be....) its my right as a mother to step up and say something or do someithing right? to anyone or anything that may hurt, or influence my baby boy in a negative way? i think so. its my duty as a mother to keep my baby safe. but am i up for such a challenge?

i guess i just need to be confident in myself and trust in the big guy above that everything and anything can and will happen for a reason and to just ride this ride of life....


on another note, my husband is going snowboarding thismorning... he is leaving in less than an hour! i'm so happy for him, i kinda wish i could go, but i got a basketball on my belly called Nolan that isn't here yet! my husband is soooo worried that i am going to go into labor while he is gone... i say, well if it happens, it happens... no need to stop living and stop breathing just to wait on a moment that isn't supposed to happen for another 12 days!!! lol... but i CAN understand... but really.. i don't feel that its going to happen... plus, first time moms usually labor for like ten hours at least, so i told him he has plenty of time to get back home!! lol... anywho, i know i am rambling, i just really have a ton on my mind.. so much so that i don't think there is enough room on these blogs to write it all! so, for now, this helped my anxiety and crazieness... FOR NOW... until the next time......

babynolan come out please!!!

so here i am... still very round and very uncomfy... everything done, just no baby!!! am i mad... absolutely not... just really impatient. its so funny.. when i first got pregnant , i was thinking that fourty weeks was not long enough to get prepared for everything that was needing to be done... now here i am... gonna be 38 weeks next week, and this baby cannot come soon enough! i know it could happen at any time now, but gut feeling, its not gonna happen that way! oh well, i know it sounds like i am complaining, i'm not trying too, like i said, i am just really really impatient!!!



been going to doctor every week now... nothing has changed in me, other than i am getting bigger and bigger and bigger... did i mention, bigger!



today we had an ultra sound... not saying it was dissappointing, because its amazing to see our lil nugget all bunched up! but there wasn't much to see other than, we definately DEFINATELY know its gonna be a boy!!! lol... (daddy hung that ultra sound picture up in his tool box at work.... kinda ironic huh!!!) but we did find out that nolan (thats our son's name) is a whopping 6 pounds 13 oz right now... and i still have two to three more weeks to go!!! the doc said he could grow up to another pound!!! woa woa woa!! thats a big baby!!!



so i guess this is my letter to my son... please come out now... your all grown and matured.... doc says its okay... i say its okay... daddy says its okay.... don't be affraid... we may be new parents, but i'm sure we can take great care of you!!! please come out now!!!!!