life.

i know that in life, sometimes crazy stuff happens... i know in life, i will meet many random people, who will influence my life.... but what to do about what will influence my son's life... what do i do when i know something just isn't right, i just can't put my finger on it? sometimes i wonder if i am ready for this, but i know i am.... it wouldn't have happened if i wasn't. i just really am freaked out at this world. its nutz out there and he is nothing but an innocent baby...( well soon to be....) its my right as a mother to step up and say something or do someithing right? to anyone or anything that may hurt, or influence my baby boy in a negative way? i think so. its my duty as a mother to keep my baby safe. but am i up for such a challenge?

i guess i just need to be confident in myself and trust in the big guy above that everything and anything can and will happen for a reason and to just ride this ride of life....


on another note, my husband is going snowboarding thismorning... he is leaving in less than an hour! i'm so happy for him, i kinda wish i could go, but i got a basketball on my belly called Nolan that isn't here yet! my husband is soooo worried that i am going to go into labor while he is gone... i say, well if it happens, it happens... no need to stop living and stop breathing just to wait on a moment that isn't supposed to happen for another 12 days!!! lol... but i CAN understand... but really.. i don't feel that its going to happen... plus, first time moms usually labor for like ten hours at least, so i told him he has plenty of time to get back home!! lol... anywho, i know i am rambling, i just really have a ton on my mind.. so much so that i don't think there is enough room on these blogs to write it all! so, for now, this helped my anxiety and crazieness... FOR NOW... until the next time......